Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Eleven Months

Yesterday Luke would have been 11 months old. Will and I stopped by the cemetery to visit our little guy yesterday, and had to unbury his plot from almost 2 feet of snow. I wish that Luke was here to see the snow. Sometimes the pain is still fresh like the day we lost him and it stops us in our tracks. Yesterday was such a day. I am getting very apprehensive about Luke's one year anniversary coming up next month. I feel like I've been robbed of Luke's birthday since the day he was born is also acknowledged as the day he died. Birthdays should be a day of celebration, but Luke's is tied to the saddest day of my life. I wish with all my heart that I was planning a 1st birthday party for him right now - getting the invitations ready and deciding what kind of special cake to make him. Oh how I miss you and love you Luke.



Lucy is doing well as far as we can tell. She is kicking around and let's me know if my pants are too tight or if I'm sitting in a position she doesn't quite like. She also let's me know if my bladder is encroaching on her space, as she will stomp on it until I make more room for her. Sorry if that is too much information. They say that every pregnancy and every child is different and I am definitely sensing that she is a girl who knows what she wants. Luke was more laid back I think, like his dad. Lucy may give me a run for my money, and I honestly can't wait. She weighs just over 2 pounds this week, and is almost 15 inches long according to my pregnancy books. She is as snug as a bug in a rug right now too, braving all of this snow and cold weather warm inside my stomach. I love how she will be born around the same time spring starts sprouting up around here. It will be springtime for Will and I in more ways than one on the day our Lucy is born.


As I watched our new president sworn into office today, I couldn't help but think that as bleak as our world is right now, I have hope in a nation that welcomed their first African American leader as the 44th President of the United States. Lucy will definitely be arriving to an interesting world this 2009, and I hope that equality and the pursuit of happiness for every human being - no matter the age, gender or race will be something very real in her life time.

1 comment:

Laura McCann said...

I saw your comment on Stacy's blog asking about suggestions for Luke's Feb. 19th remembrance.
I hope I am not being too presumptuous, but I wanted to suggest maybe planting a tree for him. I know how boys love to climb trees, build treehouses, etc...It would be a symbol of his life that would keep growing every year. You could even decorate it with ornaments if you wish. It would be something that could easily be a tradition for each following year. Just my thoughts. I hope that all goes well with little Lucy and that you find much joy and happiness in 2009.

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