Why I Continue to Blog

When I first started this blog, it was intended as a place to keep our family and friends updated on the health issues and procedures regarding Luke.  Will and I were so emotionally drained by each piece of news we received about Luke, that we found it difficult to repeat the same sad news over and over again to our caring and concerned loved ones.  Hence, babytimmerman.blogspot.com was created.  The generic title was a result of us waiting to be surprised at birth by our unborn baby's gender.  Little did we know that this blog would outlive our precious baby and go on to serve far more than our original plans.  Three baby Timmermans have been introduced to the world on these pages and the generic name we chose to represent our first child has been fitting for the ongoing journey of this blog.

I cherish the history I now have documented on these pages.  The sorrow, the joy, and our journey through grief and parenthood.  I have been thinking a lot lately about where I would like the blog to go from here, and I have decided that for now I will continue with individual monthly updates on Emma's progress until she is three years old, and then at that point I will roll her milestones in with the rest of the family's updates on a monthly basis.  I will also continue to document important family holidays and anything else that I find significant in our lives.

I think of this blog as a virtual scrapbook and photo album of our little family and it is my hope that some day when my children are grown, I can kick back, sip a cup of tea that is actually still warm, and smile at all of the memories I have captured here.  I don't want to forget the joys of this special time in my life, nor do I want to forget the challenges either.  It is a fine balance to write with truth, but to also take care of my children's privacy.  With each post I write it is my hope that my children will have a vivid glimpse back into their childhood, see how much we love them, who they are, and where they came from.

I can almost guarantee that if Luke had been healthy I would have never started this blog.  God knew what I would need to come to terms with losing Luke and to find the joy in living again.  I would trade this blog in a heart beat to have Luke here with me, but since I don't get to call the shots, I will graciously take the gift of this blog and be forever grateful to my first baby Timmerman for being the catalyst to something I will forever treasure.